Where to go....

Last week I woke up one morning to an email that I had new blog post comment awaiting my approval. When I opened it, it was from an anonymous account and I immediately had a gut feeling I was about to be disgusted with what I was going to read. I’ve heard of this happening to other bloggers and even to friends of mine who blog.

It was a comment that started out normal and quickly turned into a perverted, sickening remark directed toward one of the girls.

In a knee jerk reaction, I set this blog into a privacy mode until I gave the whole situation more thought and PRAYED A LOT about it. Not that I wanted God to give me a big neon sign of what to do, but I needed a peace of mind that this troll wouldn’t get to me. By no means do I mean for this to sound self-righteous, but it’s probably going to…my blog brings so much joy to so many readers. I run into people all the time that tell me how much they love following along with us, watching the girls grow, reading my posts, etc. When I started blogging I was doing it for myself, and now I do it in part for so many others. I will never be a “regular” blogger, you will never be able to say, “Oh, she’ll have new posts up Monday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday.” I blog when I can – it’s not my #1 or even in my top 10 of priorities anymore – and that’s ok. But when I do share posts, I know there’s others out enjoying seeing a new one come up in the morning at 4am.

So…where do I go from here?

For now, I’m going to be more cautious about certain photos and specifics that I put out there. There’s A LOT that I don’t share on here, or any form of social media for that matter, but in today’s world, anything can be found out with technology and tools available. You’d pretty much have to live off the grid to be left to yourself, which honestly sometimes, I think sounds like a pretty good idea. But let’s be honest, I’d miss Instagram and Netflix too much to live off the grid.  This has just made me more aware. My girls haven’t asked for this – they are defenseless and I am their protector. Mama Bear mode out in full swing.

I've changed different settings to help protect my blog a bit more, and I've spoken with law enforcement which led to a phone call from a TBI (Tennessee Bureau of Investigation) agent earlier this week regarding my rights, actions that can be taken, and what kind of investigative help is offered to help find and prosecute this kind of filth. I am BLOWN away at their generosity and immediate interest to look into all of this. 

For now, this blog continues. I need all the encouragement and advice I can get! Send it our way please! Not to say  that I don’t have my limits, because I most certainly do as I’ve come to find out in this past week. For those of you who have messaged or called me when you saw the “private” mode screen come up, thank you for your understanding and concern. To those of you who’ve been through this, because I’m convinced it happens to every blogger out there at some point or another, big blogger or small blogger…if it’s happened to me, it’s happened to everyone else by now…how did you move on whether you continued blogging or not? I WANT to continue blogging – honestly, it’s my ONLY hobby these days, but at what cost do I continue? My family? Nope…sorry, they will always win over this little space of mine on the internet.

Whether that comment was real or just some troll lurking around the mom-blog world trying to see who he or she can get to…well bud, chances are you get to all of us when our CHILDREN are involved you sicko. Our JOY is our kids. Our hearts are our kids. Our answered prayers are our kids. I pray that you find this same joy and love one day and that you will forever be changed. You will never know a more profound love than that you will have for your babies.