Today was the day we so anxiously looked forward to just
seven short months ago, but today is far different than what we had planned. We
know that if things had turned out differently, you may have already made your
debut or you might hold out a few more days for your arrival. We will never
know the exact date of when you would’ve been born; all we have is today,
February 25th, 2016.
We longed for you for so, so long. The day we first learned
about you, we couldn’t even believe it. You brought me to my knees in
thanksgiving for the first time in my life that morning. Your time with us was
short, but we are fulfilled in knowing you were loved and that you were covered
in prayer your entire time with us.
Even though we never physically held you in our arms, you made
us parents. The titles we had been praying for for so long.
It’s amazing how someone we never met taught us so much…
You taught us patience. We live in a world of instant
gratification. We want something, we get it, it’s done. You, precious baby, oh
how we wanted you…and wanted you. God’s plan unfolded to us to wait on His
You taught us true thankfulness. We are thankful for our
families, our friends, our homes, our jobs, our health, the modern conveniences
that we overlook every day. But you, precious baby, you taught us how to be truly
thankful…fall to our knees weeping thankful. Thankful to God for this most
You taught us teamwork. Your daddy and I aren’t always on
the same page about chores, housework, planning ahead, etc. But when you,
precious baby, came on the scene we immediately took on an “us against the
world” attitude. We were easily agreeing on any plans that needed to be made
and preparations that needed to take place before your arrival. We were
thrilled to be given the opportunity to raise you together.
You taught us about priorities. You were instantly the
reason behind any and every decision we made from the moment we knew you were
with us. God was entrusting us with you, precious baby, and we were committed
to do our very best for you in all situations and circumstances.
You taught us about prayer. We prayed before you and we
prayed often. But you, precious baby, taught us what answered prayers felt
like. Our prayer life has been fervent, specific and continual since you.
You taught us about faith. The night that we knew we were
losing you, was the darkest night we’ve ever faced. While the sadness and heartbreak
we felt was unbearable, you precious baby, we knew you were safe. Above our
fears, we knew you were ok. We knew God was caring for you far better than we
could have. We couldn’t understand the “why” of it all, but we had faith that
you were being perfectly loved.
You taught us about love. Unconditional love. How could our
hearts be instantly smitten and completely given to this tiny person we had
never even met? How did our love for each other as husband and wife just
change? You, precious baby, the gift of you opened our hearts to a new kind of
love we never saw coming. A kind of love we will never lose hold of.
We’ve often said in the past seven months, God’s plans for you
were even greater than the plans we had ourselves. We’ve often said, one day we’ll
understand. One day, we’ll know His plan. One day, we’ll know your purpose.
Your purpose, precious baby, was to teach us these
invaluable lessons that we are reminded of every single day since last Summer. Your
purpose was patience, thankfulness, teamwork, priorities, prayer, faith and
We miss you every single day. We pray about you every single
day. We are thankful for you every single day, and we cannot wait to meet you
one day, precious baby.
Love you forever,
Great is our Lord, and abundant in power; his understanding is beyond measure. Psalm 147:5
When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him? Ps. 8:3&4 Know therefore that the LORD your God is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and steadfast love with those who love him and keep his commandments, to a thousand generations, Deut. 7:9
For this God is our God for ever and ever: he will be our guide even unto death. Ps. 48:14
Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Prov. 3:5&6
Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. Isa. 40:28